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Ginny Weasley
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Ginny Weasley Feb 20, 2015 18:37:03 GMT -5

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Post by Ginny Weasley on Feb 20, 2015 18:37:03 GMT -5

12th August 1997

Before I actually start writing this journal properly, I just want to say how ridiculous I feel writing down my thoughts and feelings. I also want to point out that writing a journal was not my idea, but my mother's as she thought that I could do with sharing how I feel with someone- or something in this case as she clearly isn't that interested in how I feel at the moment.

So I guess the main idea of this journal is to try and understand everything that is swimming around in my head, and I aim to write something in here everyday. Not because I want too- but because there is nothing else to do at this time of my life.

Everyone is walking on eggshells at the moment. Ever since Bill's wedding when the Death Eaters gatecrashed and Harry, Ron and Hermione disappeared. Without me. The burrow is lonelier than ever now that they aren't here. I just don't know what to do with myself anymore.

It was my birthday yesterday. My sixteenth. Though nobody was really in the mood to celebrate. We had to throw out Harry's Snitch birthday cake, because it wouldn't keep long enough for his return- if he returns. But mum made me a cake too. Just a simple one. I'm sitting with a slice now actually, but I'm not really hungry so I'm just eating the cake. I'm not too keen on the icing- Ron usually eats it for me. He's too kind.

Bloody Hell!

Everything around me reminds me of them. Reminds me of how much I miss them. How much I want them back. Or how much I want to be with them.... I hate that they left without me, that HE left without me. I just hope they come back soon.

I don't really know what else to write at the moment, due to the fact that absolutely nothing is going on. We are literally just sitting around, waiting for some news. I spent four hours listening to the radio yesterday. Four hours on my birthday, wasted listening to lists of the dead, praying that I didn't hear any of the three names.

I suppose this diary idea isn't too bad after all. But I won't tell my mum that. I don't want her to start thinking that she's always right, or I'll have to start always listening to her.

Hopefully things will be better when I return to school and see my friends.

Thanks for listening...
Ginny

Ginny Weasley
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Ginny Weasley Feb 21, 2015 15:53:23 GMT -5 Admin Breeze likes this

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Post by Ginny Weasley on Feb 21, 2015 15:53:23 GMT -5

13th August 1997

I did something that I shouldn't have done today. It's really bad. If anybody finds out then I am going to be in so much trouble.

I wrote a letter to Harry....

Of course I didn't address it to him though. I called him 'Lionboy' in an attempt to make him laugh. But maybe it was a stupid idea. I know that the ministry is tracing letters now that Voldemort has taken it over. He's taken everything over actually. It's scary.

So yes, I sent a letter to Harry with Pigwidgeon. So I'm just praying that he gets it. Even if he doesn't want to reply to it. If Pigwidgeon comes back with nothing, at least I'll know that he has seen it.

It hurts to not have him around. I miss him so much. I don't think I ever realised how much I loved him until he disappeared.

That's right, diary, Ginny Weasley is in love. Hard to stomach, eh?

It's not like when I was with Michael. Or when I was with Dean. Michael was sweet, and we got on together, but we were fourth years, it was never going to go anywhere. And Dean...well he was a good kisser... but all we did was argue. He made me cry. Nobody makes me cry. That was never meant to work either.

I think Harry's the one. But he dumped me and obviously doesn't think the same way.

.....

I don't want this to be an entry full of me whining about Harry. So I'll shut up about him.

I've started cleaning my room today- that shows just how bored I am. I'd rather tidy my room than sit and mope with my mother. My father still works at the Ministry, but he says things are getting worse. I wish he would just stay home.

During the cleaning of my bedroom, I found several Chocolate Frog cards that I have put into Ron's collection file. I had Andros the Invincible and I know he doesn't have him. It'll be a nice surprise for him when he returns. Because Hermione shares my room, I've had to dodge around her stuff as I don't want to touch anything that she may have in a specific place for a specific reason. I have, however, taken to alphabetising my books- she would be proud. It is actually very therapeutic.

After finishing my room, I listened to the radio for another three hours. Still no names. I suppose it's a good thing. I haven't heard anything that I recognise at the moment. But sometimes a name will be said and my mum will burst into tears or my dad will start talking loudly to drown it out.

That's all I really have to say at the moment. There's nothing much going on.

I guess I am just thankful that I'm alive. My family is alive. That's all I can ask for.

Thanks for listening...

Ginny

Ginny Weasley
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Ginny Weasley Feb 22, 2015 14:42:12 GMT -5

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Post by Ginny Weasley on Feb 22, 2015 14:42:12 GMT -5

14th August 1997

I still haven't had a reply from Harry yet. But Pigwidgeon hasn't came back so there is still hope that he just hasn't received it yet.

I read my entry from yesterday and nearly threw up at how pathetic and soppy I sounded. So I have decided that I am not going to talk about him anymore today. Not ever until I've had a reply to my letter. Or at least know he's read it.

I decided to venture to Diagon Alley today. Most of the shops have shut down, it's really depressing to walk around and see boarded up windows and barricaded doors of shops that you used to go to practically every year. Fred and George's joke shop is really good though. Business is still great for them and nobody has been able to close them down.

It's good to be able to have a laugh every now and again. Fred and George are the masters at that. It was fun. They showed me how to make some of the potions they've created. I guess they were just taking pity on me- trying to distract me from everything.

Well it's always been said that laughter is the best medicine. Maybe they're right.

Today was a good day. There were no names on the radio. Nobody died. Or at least....no bodies have been found yet.

It was good to get outside though. I've been feeling so trapped in the Burrow. It feels more like a prison than a home. So just going to Diagon Alley was an adventure. But so much has changed it felt like a new place.

After I got back, I de-gnomed the garden for mum. Usually Ron or the twins do it. But Ron is- wherever he is- and the twins live above the Joke shop. So they don't come round much. I got bitten by one of the gnomes, but dad checked and it isn't infected.

This diary slash journal is probably one of the most boring anybody will ever read. I actually cannot understand why I have written about a trip to Diagon Alley and de-gnoming the back garden. My life is just far too excitable for my tastes.

So that's all from me today then. It's getting late and I have enough trouble sleeping without going to bed late.

Hopefully something more interesting will happen tomorrow- or maybe I should be praying that everything is just as boring.... Maybe I'll get a letter...

Thanks for Listening...
Ginny

Ginny Weasley
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Ginny Weasley Feb 23, 2015 17:53:15 GMT -5

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Post by Ginny Weasley on Feb 23, 2015 17:53:15 GMT -5

15th August 1997

This won't be a long journal entry. I don't have the energy to write as much as I usually do.

I just wanted to say that I got a letter from Ron! My brother actually took the time to write to me. He was an idiot and didn't use an safe names or anything like that, but I'm so happy. It's just made everything so much better to hear from him.

The letter was perfect. It was caring and insulting at the same time- matching Ron perfectly. I love him so much, though I would still never probably admit it. Maybe I would actually. When I see him again.

He told me that all three of them miss me. But how can that be true when Harry still has replied to my letter? I don't expect Ron to be very insightful with the whole situation. I doubt he'll know anything more than I do about Harry. I just hope they stay safe. I want them all home safely. I'm awaiting his next letter, hoping that he replies fast.

I feel so much better now. It's like everything has begun again, I'm happy again. Happy for the first time since they left.

Well that's all I wanted to say. I'll write what else he says tomorrow if I get another reply. I guess he missed me just as much as I miss him. Maybe even more? I know he wouldn't admit it either. We're both too stubborn.

Thanks for Listening...
Ginny

Ginny Weasley
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Posts: 139

Ginny Weasley Mar 2, 2015 16:45:51 GMT -5

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Post by Ginny Weasley on Mar 2, 2015 16:45:51 GMT -5

24th August 1997

Sorry I haven't written in a while. I've just been so busy with packing for Hogwarts, and getting all of my books ready. And helping my mum with the household chores.

Anyway....

Guess what? Harry wrote to me. A full letter. It took him ages but he actually wrote to me. I've got it safe in the back of this journal. Nobody is going to ruin this for me.

THe letter was amazing. It made me laugh, and made me cry. It made me question things that I had never even considered before. But then again, Harry does that a lot.

I'm so glad that he is safe. And Ron's last letter told me that they had a plan. He promised he would be home by christmas....I've already wrapped their presents. Hopefully he's right. I really miss them... Harry especially.

Of course, I responded to his letter immediately, which probably made me look really desperate and pathetic but I don't care. My reply was probably more annoying and had a hint of anger in it, as something in his letter had wound me up. He was acting as if he was the only person to ever feel pain. To ever suffer from anything.

I remember the last line of my reply.... 'You're the only person hurting me, Harry'

I really hope that isn't the last thing that I ever say to him. My letter sounded so sad, as if I was begging him to take back what he said. I want us to be together, but I can't. Not when he's being so self-centered.

Self-centered? How can I even say that about Harry when he is out there right now, risking his life to save everybody. Harry is the least self-centered person I know. Yet, I still took it out on him in my letter. Maybe I was a bit too harsh...but he did hurt my feelings.

Well, if he replies (which he probably won't after what I said to him), then I can tell him exactly how I feel. I should probably apologise to him too.

Well, that's all I wanted to say. Hopefully he won't die, then I'll be able to see him again.

I promise that I will tell him that I love him in my next letter. I've never told anybody that I loved them before....apart from family. And nobody, apart from family, has said that they loved me.

Harry doesn't have to feel the same way, I can't make somebody love me. But it will be good to get it off my mind.

Hopefully going back to Hogwarts and seeing all my friends again will help get my mind off him. Otherwise I'll go insane.

Thanks for listening
Ginny

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